Not Another Second

I have been angry.
At myself and towards others, for the simple yet atrocious reality of

 people harboring the mentality that they are better than others.

It began with ME.

 still thinking about a no longer friend of Greg's 

who broke off all ties with Greg

 because he felt like he had to walk around eggshells with Greg.

When this happened months ago, my immediate response was;

"GOOD FORGET HIM GREG, 

you don't need that kind of negativity in your life."

And oh I as Greg's wife I  was LIVID.

I couldn't even stand to think of this person,

-has the sheer thought of someone ever just irked you, this was one of those -

& then as I prayed 

& prayed

& prayed 

sure enough I realized the root of the issue,
I was HURT for Greg.  

I understand often friendships needing to terminate,

because some people are only for a season & some are just toxic.

but I was utterly wounded for the rejection Greg faced,

& mostly because I have grown to know Greg

to truly KNOW him
yes ALL of his beautiful & ALL of his ugly

 I knew them going in & no question chose to love him still;

 the past was the past,I knew every detail 

& where my concern lay was with his present and his future.

 Because I knew how much he'd grown
how much he's fought to be the man he is today
& how EVERYDAY HE IS FIGHTING to be the self God created him to be.

I was infuriated & resented this person for dropping Greg like a fly,

 (especially at a time where Greg was making strides with his faith 

& wanted a Christian brother to enjoy life with as they spur each other on towards Christ.) 

INSTEAD Greg,  was tossed to the wayside 

because of the other person feeling like they had to walk on eggshells.
What annoyed me further, 

was this person had their fair share of ugly & Greg didn't like any of it,   

but Greg always saw beyond that Greg saw hope for him, 

Greg knew JESUS was better than this persons worst ugly.

That person paid no mind to the progress Greg made, 

the way Greg wanted a friend who he could grow towards Jesus with

 nor the fact that Greg began to associate this person as such, 

then with a sprinkle of avoidance, a single eggshell comment, & an explosion

 the damage he had done.

Friendship over.

So I am ANGRY

months later because 

HOW DARE I

 for every moment turned minute turned hour turned day turned month

 I spent angry at this person,

 instead of praying for them, forgiving them, & wishing them well.

 Person, I am sorry for being so angry with you for so long.

 You were wrong about Greg, & you hurt us, but we forgive you & we love you.

HOW DARE THIS PERSON drop Greg,

 because he thought he knew Greg
 or he thought he was too good for Greg,
 well you didn't & you're not 
 but as I said we love you,forgive you & are cheering you on towards all God has for you.

HOW DARE YOU reader & HOW DARE WE humanity

for cultivating a mindset that allows for cruel, harsh, vindictive, jealous thoughts
for wanting people to fail  ICK  shame on us

for riding our high horses 

for forgetting that there is HOPE for everyone

for attaching people with a stigma for life, & not affording them the prospect of hope

for allowing anything to ring true,

that soothes & flatters the idea that you are a superior person.

our culture our generation takes home the gold for the most

 narcissistic generation by along shot, & I HATE that

lets shift the stats & be known for a people as a generation a culture who take home the gold silver and bronze for being selfless, grace - filled, & forgiving.

Don't you see?

STEP OFF YOUR PEDESTALS PEOPLE THERE'S LOVE TO BE HAD

Your hate, bitterness, resentment,hostility towards humans

instead of towards the evil

is creating only more destruction!

It took me months to learn this lesson
may it only take you the time it takes to read this blog post
may youREMEMBER

everyone is fighting a hard battle in some way,

but as Mother Teresa would say "LOVE THEM ANYWAY"

BE KIND for everyone you know is fighting a hard battle.

but don't just be kind 

be patient

be joyful

be listening

be forgiving

be light

be a breath of fresh air

be encouraging

be a friend

& 

May we constantly be aware of anything,

that causes us to think of ourselves

as superior towards others because,

BREAKING NEWS PEOPLE

God loves the person you think you're better than 

JUST AS MUCH AS HE LOVES YOU 

& because repetition is key as we're learning this lesson together

God loves the person you think you're better than 

JUST AS MUCH AS HE LOVES YOU

God loves the person you think you're better than 

JUST AS MUCH AS HE LOVES YOU 

God LOVES the person you think you're better than 

JUST AS MUCH AS HE LOVES YOU

You may choose to spend more minutes hours days years of your life

abiding in the field of bitter, 

drinking from the waters of pride

& soaking up the rays of pompous,entitled, resentful, better than mentality

but oh not I, not us

we're over that, 

ANY TIME we've spent feeling cruelty towards others has been far too much

for this life is 

far to precious, 

& the love of Christ

 far to great & forgiving

....making us so inferior, but yet so valued.

so as for Greg & I

we'll spend our time loving people

as for the time we'll spend harboring superiority and ill thoughts towards others,
well,

not another second.